Some of you have been asking about my plans, where i’m headed, and for how long.
I have to admit, although flattering that ya’ll are interested in my life and travels I don’t always love being greeted by “What are you doing here? I thought you left for good?” upon entering the yoga studio.
What am I even supposed to answer to that? :”Good to see you too?” And then the questions begin:” I thought you were in Costa Rica, how long will you be there for, and then are you coming back to California, and when, and for how long”
I get it, you want to know. And I want to know too. But the truth is that I don’t know what my plans are yet.
And I am not in a rush to figure them out either.
In the past I used to freak out when I didn’t know what I was doing and spend all my free time being anxious because I didn’t know what would be next. Now I don’t anymore, because I have learned to value those few quiet moments of transition, when you still don’t know…and it’s okay.
This doesn’t mean that I am not hard working. When the momentum comes, I am usually on the go, taking every opportunity to work, to make money, to travel, to move. But when I get an opportunity to be quiet, alone and still….I take it! Those are few and far between.
So here I am in Marin County, housesitting, teaching yoga still, about five classes a week, and the rest of my time is being used with sleeping plenty (what a luxury!), reading books, doing my own yoga practice, gardening, hiking, suntanning, cooking ,playing with tiny white dogs and hanging out with few select friends.
And I am throughly enjoying it.
I am okay with not having more work because I am intentionally making room for something new to come. I am thinking about which direction I want my life to go.
For the past three years that I have been leading a more erratic lifestyle, with lots of travel and moving around. I really enjoy the freedom of being rent free and having no long term commitments. I can be anywhere I want at any given time.
But there are downsides to the lifestyle too.
For example, I do miss out on professional opportunities a lot. Usually when I just about settled enough in a place to work my way into better gigs, like start teaching at this great studio, or get promoted, I am about ready to leave.
So I take my precious experiences with me, pack my things, and say goodbye.
With less work opportunities comes less financial opportunity as well, and more uncertainty in general.
But I have found that what I miss the most about not being settled in one place is a sense of community.
In Miami Beach I felt that I got to tap into a great community of young, fun, likeminded individuals, and I really enjoyed it.
Ever since then I have met extraordinary people, but in more fleeting ways. And at other times I have not felt ready or willing to delve into the local community because I knew I was going to leave soon anyways.
In order to build community, one has to be in the same place for a prolonged period of time. But It’s not enough to just be in one place. One has to be willing to build connections, reach out and participate.
So I am debating wether or not I am ready to settle more permanently somewhere for the sake of building that community feeling around me and for more financial stability, for the opportunity to save money rather than just get by every month.
But, where? It would have to be somewhere warm year round and that provides plenty of quiet and nature but work opportunities as well.
California is cold but has nature, Miami’s weather is perfect but lacks nature, Costa Rica has nature, warm weather but not as easy of work opportunities. No place is perfect!
Or do I want to make it a point to travel as much as I still can BEFORE I settle somewhere more permanently?
I could try and work remotely so that I can still take advantage of my current lifestyle. Spend half the year in Costa Rica, some time in California, some time in Europe?
That actually sounds perfect to me, but on the flip side I am absolutely done volunteering abroad, work-trading, or just generally hassling to travel cheaply. I want to be retributed for my skills and live a comfortable lifestyle (to be precise- I don’t need AC or TV, but I don’t want to travel in chicken buses either if you know what I mean). So because of those new boundaries I’ve set I am narrowing my options of things I can do, which means I’ll have to look harder and find more quality opportunities.
These are all the various options I am considering at this moment. This is an exciting opportunity I have and I am looking forward to the possibilities.
What about you? Have you ever been at a similar crossroad?
Any advice is appreciated! 🙂